Current mood:	hyper
Current music:	dizzy gileespie// Manteca (funky lowlives remix)

when valentine rains it pours...
I have finished composing my valentines cards...

I have decided to send cards to guys numbers 2-4 that being Joe, Robert and Stewart. Colin doesnt equate into seeing as i feel stalked by him largely, I've made my mind up to let go of that old chestnut.

My love life feels like a rollacoaser ride and I don't know where to turn at the mo. The two friends whom i would usually turn to are at the moment in the throws of romantic havoc having both been dumped in the space of a week. So I'm largely being there for them. Valentines can seem like a really cruel time of year, this is in fact the first valentine's that has come up in which I actually have any lovers to celebrate it with, and it feels pretty strange.

On top of this it hasnt help that despite thingshaving settled down at university, I have come out the other end minus two good mates. There is nothing I can think of saying or doing that would win these friends trust back so I've decided there is nothing to do but wait it out.

Last night I got stoned and I had a memory of a time past when I was taught by an old witch about respecting all of the earths gifts by sharing them back with the earth. So I had half my weed left and i crumbled it and sprinkled it over the back garden offering its life energy to that patch of land, it felt really good and I feel blessed to have had the momentary inspiration of the herb and then to have let go.

life is a strange set of circumstances indeed.
xxx